Don't think its going to happen

I did (re)lose 2 lbs. this week, which puts me back at 10 lbs. lost, and that is a good thing...but I'm pretty upset with myself because I know I'm not going to make my next mini goal of losing 20 lbs. by March 8th...unless of course I can lose a pound a day...very unlikely.

Why does this have to be so FREAKIN' HARD??? I was able to lose 40 lbs. in 4 months back in 2009! Why can't I do that now??? I guess I know of some reasons...but it doesn't make it any less frustrating. I counted calories EVERY DAY back then and was able to stay within my calorie range. I am leery of counting/cutting calories right now because I am still nursing my 9 month old daughter. I don't want to compromise my milk supply so that makes it hard...and because I'm not counting calories its so much easier to overeat. Guess all I can do is keep trying because I REFUSE to give up! Its hard though to keep going when some of those closest to me don't believe I can do it. Part of me is saying "Oh yeah, watch me!" but another part of me just feels defeated and says "You're right, there's no way I can do this, what am I thinking?". I will NOT let that part of me win, no matter what others say (or imply).

Here's to another week of weight loss and learning how to eat better! : )